Chattering and laughing
Up one tree and down another
Chasing and giggling
Almost maniacal in their glee.
Then fighting and scrabbling
Pulling a tail and scratching a face
One whimpering and crawling away
Each squabble a different winner.
Plotting and planning
Building and rearranging
Each fort or base more elaborate
Than the last.
Then out and about again
Under foot, over table
Around the corner
Up the walls.
Trying to get anything done
Around this age and season
Is pretty much akin
To chasing squirrels.
A glimpse into our family: What we think about & what's important to us.
Sunday, May 31, 2020
Hike to Blackrock
We went on a magical hike yesterday to Blackrock Summit yesterday in Shenandoah National Park with our neighbors, the Zopps. The park has been closed for two months because of COVID-19, which has been a super bummer, and yesterday was the first day it reopened.
The little boys (Jake and Benjy) were in the backpacks, which they tolerated reasonably well. Clara chose not to come, which I was disappointed by, but we are trying to pick our battles these days. The hike was only a mile loop, which was just right for the start of summer.
Not a great pic, but man, this view was gorgeous! The weather was perfect--warmish and dry with a light breeze. Kate is doing well while still recovering from GBS and is an inspiration.
Check out this rattlesnake in the foreground! It was awesome watching it slither over the rocks.
It was an awkward hike to the peak, but the rocks were dry, so it wasn't too bad.
At the top!
On our way home, we stop at a lookout and used our binoculars. It was so restful watching birds just gliding on a thermal current, not a care in the world. It was a terrific hike with great company.
The little boys (Jake and Benjy) were in the backpacks, which they tolerated reasonably well. Clara chose not to come, which I was disappointed by, but we are trying to pick our battles these days. The hike was only a mile loop, which was just right for the start of summer.
Not a great pic, but man, this view was gorgeous! The weather was perfect--warmish and dry with a light breeze. Kate is doing well while still recovering from GBS and is an inspiration.
Check out this rattlesnake in the foreground! It was awesome watching it slither over the rocks.
It was an awkward hike to the peak, but the rocks were dry, so it wasn't too bad.
At the top!
On our way home, we stop at a lookout and used our binoculars. It was so restful watching birds just gliding on a thermal current, not a care in the world. It was a terrific hike with great company.
Thursday, May 28, 2020
A visit to Ohio
Despite my stress and worry about COVID-19, Michael successfully persuaded me to go to Ohio to visit his sister, Bethany, and her family over Memorial Day weekend. I am so glad we did.
William is five and George is three (they also have a baby, Frederick, who is one), and Keith is in his DO residency in Dayton. Bethany was very gracious and accommodating considering we gave her hardly any notice when we asked if we could come up. There was some fighting between Robbie and Henry using William as a pawn (each of them wanting to play with him individually and leaving the other out), but in general they all played well together. We especially enjoyed time in their beautiful back yard, playing with water toys and the awesome swing that Bethany made. She had made several items of furniture for the kids--super impressed with her resourcefulness and creativity.
Watching family scripture videos on Sunday morning.
Their neighborhood has a couple of ponds, which the boys enjoyed visiting.
A toad was the highlight of the day.
We visited the Cox Arboretum with them--it was beautiful.
This is a poor photo, but we saw a couple of massive snapping turtles in the water there.
Check out this fun kid-sized maze made out of bushes.
Walking in the Arboretum.
I got the address of our old house where I was born, which was really fun to see. Centerville is still very well cared-for and the home was lovely. Wish I could remember more of it!
The kids and I self-quarantined for several days from neighbors when we got home to make sure we didn't get anything, and we have been fine. So glad we took the risk (thanks, darling!).
William is five and George is three (they also have a baby, Frederick, who is one), and Keith is in his DO residency in Dayton. Bethany was very gracious and accommodating considering we gave her hardly any notice when we asked if we could come up. There was some fighting between Robbie and Henry using William as a pawn (each of them wanting to play with him individually and leaving the other out), but in general they all played well together. We especially enjoyed time in their beautiful back yard, playing with water toys and the awesome swing that Bethany made. She had made several items of furniture for the kids--super impressed with her resourcefulness and creativity.
Watching family scripture videos on Sunday morning.
Their neighborhood has a couple of ponds, which the boys enjoyed visiting.
A toad was the highlight of the day.
We visited the Cox Arboretum with them--it was beautiful.
This is a poor photo, but we saw a couple of massive snapping turtles in the water there.
Check out this fun kid-sized maze made out of bushes.
Walking in the Arboretum.
I got the address of our old house where I was born, which was really fun to see. Centerville is still very well cared-for and the home was lovely. Wish I could remember more of it!
The kids and I self-quarantined for several days from neighbors when we got home to make sure we didn't get anything, and we have been fine. So glad we took the risk (thanks, darling!).
Wednesday, May 20, 2020
My Prayer Tonight
I wring my heart out
At the throne of grace.
Feeling empty and weak
A sponge that can give no more.
I pray that I might be filled
Filled with God’s power
That the endowment which I have been promised
Might bear fruit during my season of need,
This season
With young children growing
Needing constant nourishment in body
And in spirit
While my own capacity seems unable to carry more
Than a few drops of water.
Oh God!
Make my vessel sufficient
To carry thy Living Water
To the souls whom thou hast given me
To nourish and strengthen.
Expand this dryness
Make me soft and supple.
Give me lift
That I might bounce back
From blows and
Weights pressed down upon me.
Use me to wipe the tears
And wash the wounds
Of those in my care.
Fill me with thy love
And I will expand to become
A tool in thy Hand
To reveal their divinity.
Sunday, May 17, 2020
Mother's Day
This was a lovely Mother's Day. I really appreciated the forethought that Michael put in to helping the kids do something for me and to preparing for the day. As always, mixed emotions, but it was nice to be at home for church and to have Michael help all day with the kids. I am so grateful for my own mother, and my gratitude grows the older I get.
I found Robbie's panda on my nightstand with a note reading, "Hugs and kisses from Thunderbolt the Panda."
Michael and the boys made me a delicious crustless quiche, and I actually slept in (with Michael running interference to keep the kids from the door).
Michael had practiced with the kids the song, "Mother, I Love You," which melted my heart. I had also compiled pictures of all the Primary moms to make a YouTube video with that same song for the Primary families. I have been sending out a video nearly weekly to the ward with different Primary songs for them to practice.
Look at this sweet puzzle that Robbie made me, complete with its own toilet paper carrying case.
Michael brought home a gorgeous bouquet.
We made dinner together (tacos) and then Michael had made strawberry shortcakes earlier that day, which we ate outside by the fire pit. So peaceful.
Motherhood continues to be my greatest challenge, but I am thankful for the privilege and for the brief glimpses I get that I am doing a good job. I have so much to work on, but I am trying really hard. I am deeply grateful for Michael's love and support and for Heavenly Father's tender patience with me.
I found Robbie's panda on my nightstand with a note reading, "Hugs and kisses from Thunderbolt the Panda."
Michael and the boys made me a delicious crustless quiche, and I actually slept in (with Michael running interference to keep the kids from the door).
Michael had practiced with the kids the song, "Mother, I Love You," which melted my heart. I had also compiled pictures of all the Primary moms to make a YouTube video with that same song for the Primary families. I have been sending out a video nearly weekly to the ward with different Primary songs for them to practice.
Look at this sweet puzzle that Robbie made me, complete with its own toilet paper carrying case.
Michael brought home a gorgeous bouquet.
We made dinner together (tacos) and then Michael had made strawberry shortcakes earlier that day, which we ate outside by the fire pit. So peaceful.
Motherhood continues to be my greatest challenge, but I am thankful for the privilege and for the brief glimpses I get that I am doing a good job. I have so much to work on, but I am trying really hard. I am deeply grateful for Michael's love and support and for Heavenly Father's tender patience with me.
Saturday, May 9, 2020
Seven: a poem for my mother
Seven babies, seven childhoods
Seven tweens and teens.
Seven grown adults
And seven in-betweens.
Seven bottoms to be wiped
Cloth diapers to be cleaned
Seven mouths to feed with care
And from her milk be weaned.
Seven brains to teach
Seven hearts to hold
Seven spirits to lift
Seven characters to mold.
Seven sets of eyes to see
Into their mama's own
Seven mouths to kiss her cheeks
As arms 'round neck are thrown.
Seven bikes to teach to ride
Seven beds to teach to make
Seven childhoods of birthdays
For each a pie or cake to bake.
Seven days of every week
From morning until night
Filled with meeting others' needs
Working with all her might.
Seven sometimes stinkers
Oblivious to her care
Seven snide remarkers
With a high and mighty air.
Seven teens to pray for
As each learned behind the wheel
Seven teens with drama
Seven hearts to heal.
Seven souls to pray for
To cry over with concern
Seven hearts to break for
For their happiness to yearn.
And even though those seven now
Are seven gone and grown
Those seven souls to her give thanks
No better mom they've known.
Thank you, Mom, for raising each of us and for loving us so fully and for sacrificing so much for us. And thank you to Dad, of course, for being such a great husband to Mom and a wonderful father to each of us. I know you did all of this as equal partners, supporting and helping each other. You are both an inspiring example to me and to so many others. I love you!
Seven tweens and teens.
Seven grown adults
And seven in-betweens.
Seven bottoms to be wiped
Cloth diapers to be cleaned
Seven mouths to feed with care
And from her milk be weaned.
Seven brains to teach
Seven hearts to hold
Seven spirits to lift
Seven characters to mold.
Seven sets of eyes to see
Into their mama's own
Seven mouths to kiss her cheeks
As arms 'round neck are thrown.
Seven bikes to teach to ride
Seven beds to teach to make
Seven childhoods of birthdays
For each a pie or cake to bake.
Seven days of every week
From morning until night
Filled with meeting others' needs
Working with all her might.
Seven sometimes stinkers
Oblivious to her care
Seven snide remarkers
With a high and mighty air.
Seven teens to pray for
As each learned behind the wheel
Seven teens with drama
Seven hearts to heal.
Seven souls to pray for
To cry over with concern
Seven hearts to break for
For their happiness to yearn.
And even though those seven now
Are seven gone and grown
Those seven souls to her give thanks
No better mom they've known.
Thank you, Mom, for raising each of us and for loving us so fully and for sacrificing so much for us. And thank you to Dad, of course, for being such a great husband to Mom and a wonderful father to each of us. I know you did all of this as equal partners, supporting and helping each other. You are both an inspiring example to me and to so many others. I love you!
Tuesday, May 5, 2020
Done
Each day I look at my to-do list
Surprised that there's no end.
Why should I be shocked? I wonder;
God's work is not done yet either.
From before the earth was formed
Until the final judgment day
He works tirelessly.
No night to divide each day's work
But in one eternal Now
He sees His works before Him
And carefully tends it all.
If I want to be like Him
Why should I bemoan my fate
To never have my list complete
Or my house to be perfectly organized
With every closet tidy
And every floor clean?
"After this last project," I hear myself say,
"And I will be done with the house."
"After this last purchase, I am all set,"
I determine unconvincingly.
What a laugh!
Just as I cannot stop my children from growing
Nor can I keep my tasks from perpetuating.
Some day the dirty diapers will disappear
And the teenage driving worries will begin
Some day the house will stay neat
But my list will simply have evolved.
So today I will face my list without dread
And choose to focus
On the tasks within my day
Instead of on a future burden.
My choices are my daily paint strokes
I make for this day in eternity
And my painting will forever expand in glory
As I embrace each day's labor.
Surprised that there's no end.
Why should I be shocked? I wonder;
God's work is not done yet either.
From before the earth was formed
Until the final judgment day
He works tirelessly.
No night to divide each day's work
But in one eternal Now
He sees His works before Him
And carefully tends it all.
If I want to be like Him
Why should I bemoan my fate
To never have my list complete
Or my house to be perfectly organized
With every closet tidy
And every floor clean?
"After this last project," I hear myself say,
"And I will be done with the house."
"After this last purchase, I am all set,"
I determine unconvincingly.
What a laugh!
Just as I cannot stop my children from growing
Nor can I keep my tasks from perpetuating.
Some day the dirty diapers will disappear
And the teenage driving worries will begin
Some day the house will stay neat
But my list will simply have evolved.
So today I will face my list without dread
And choose to focus
On the tasks within my day
Instead of on a future burden.
My choices are my daily paint strokes
I make for this day in eternity
And my painting will forever expand in glory
As I embrace each day's labor.
“The truth of God will go forth boldly, nobly, and independent, 'till it has penetrated every continent, visited every clime, swept every country, and sounded in every ear, till the purposes of God shall be accomplished, and the Great Jehovah shall say the work is done.” - Joseph Smith, Jr. (emphasis added)
Sunday, May 3, 2020
April fun
Our "stay-at-home" experience has had its ups and downs, but we are doing well overall. My heart goes out to working parents who are both working from home or who both have to leave their kids at home to be an "essential worker" on the front lines. Speaking of "essential," both Michael and I feel a little annoyed by that term--Michael hasn't been able to see his patients for a month (except for a few), and he is pretty essential to folks who still have braces on their teeth! Plus he is pretty essential to our being able to currently having a roof over our head and food on our table (I could certainly go back to work, but you know what I mean). Tongue in cheek aside, my prayers go out continually to healthcare workers, food workers, scientists and others who are working to "slow the spread" and also keep all the supply lines open. I hate wearing a mask when I make my weekly errand trips to Target and Costco, but it's all good.
Henry's chart was for doing his morning routine all by himself, plus earning a little bit of the money.
Robbie's was for reading 10 verses in the Book of Mormon per day and earning some of the money.
We got a bike seat for Benjy, too, and he really enjoys it. We also purchased a bike for Clara, and she has learned to balance and pedal her bike! She still is really scared of it but is determined and continues to work at it, which is inspiring.
At the invitation of a friend, we made a sign for the hospital healthcare workers and put it up in one of the employee parking lots.
Homemade doughnuts made from molds that Nana sent us. The doughnut recipe I used (not from my mom) was pretty tasteless, but the kids thought they were awesome.
Here the boys are playing "spies," apparently.
One of the things we've been working on is having "special time" with each of the kids every day, a feat that is easier said than done. Special time is just 10 or 15 minutes doing an activity that the child gets to pick. Here Henry and I made a tower together.
We made "rain" with shaving cream and colored water, learning about how clouds fill up and empty.
Henry can be very sweet with Benjy sometimes. He also can be pretty rough with him, which is challenging, but the hugs shared between them are precious. Henry loves reading and swinging and climbing and playing games. We enjoy Don't Break the Ice, Race to the Treasure, Memory, Guess Who, Uno, Slamwich, and more.
Benjy is very very busy. Very. Good thing he is so stinking cute.
We took pictures of headstones at a local cemetery one Sunday for the Billion Graves app.
Working on another sign for a family in the ward.
Dinosaur themed preschool was not as cool as I was hoping, but that's okay. I am pretty sure teaching other kids is easier than your own, but then there have also been some gratifying teaching moments, like when Henry and I learned about the different words you could make from the word "planets" during our space themed week. Robbie typically does some of the activities with me and Henry (after we do our poem, etc. as I mentioned in a previous post) and then does his work from school on the tablet or on paper. I love how he is also interested in his own topics, like sharks--he has made a long list of at least one hundred shark species, which he has written in teeny handwriting. Lots of cool Lego creations these days from Robbie as well.
To make things feel more normal and to get out of the house, one Saturday we visited the enormously overpriced Virginia Safari Park to feed animals from our car.
I think Benjy's favorite part was being able to sit in front and roam around the car.
Lots of llamas.
Yum!
Space week went better--we watched a fascinating tour of the inside of the ISS and learned a lot of things about the planets and the moon. I love learning. I am especially appreciative of the people whose brains work differently than mine and can fathom things like space and time more easily than I can.
Speaking of the moon, here are its phases, Oreo-style.
This moon dough was a lot of fun. Very messy, but fun. Clara generally does her schoolwork in the study on her Chromebook, but on this occasion she wanted to join in on the fun.
Lots of book reading happening (Robbie is so cute when he reads to Benjy)--I have purchased some books, and my neighbors, Kate and Grace and I are doing a little book swap each week, which has really helped. I don't like reading books on a device, but we have done some of that, too.
Michael has been doing various house projects, like building these planter boxes. He has still been going in 9 to 4 to complete a lot of backlogged work and projects, but the extra time on each end has been helpful to me. Too bad it ends tomorrow when he goes back to seeing patients. Still, though, we certainly have enjoyed having him around more, and the kids are always bummed when Daddy has to go to work.
This Russian ring stacker from my parents is still going strong. I love Benjy's focus when he does things like this.
It is sweet to look back and see how we can find joy in little things despite the uncertainty and stress swirling around us. I have felt some feelings of anxiety and stress, worrying when enough is enough when it comes to educating my kids or making sure they're contributing around the house enough, etc. I also struggle when I am too focused on myself, and serving others is a little trickier now. Still, when I reach outside of myself I always feel better. Michael helped me realize I needed to make a plan for when I am focused on the kids' needs for school (9 to 12am) and when it's fine for things to be unstructured and for me not to feel guilty if I can't play with them all the time (in the afternoon). I made a list of daily priorities for myself as well, which has helped.
I was not looking forward to having home church each week, but I've been amazed that I can still feel the Spirit even when the kids are misbehaving (as long as I haven't lost the Spirit because I'm too upset at them). That is a great blessing.
So, we continue on, not knowing whether things in the summer will be cancelled or continued, basically taking each week at a time. I am ready to have "permission" to have playdates and go to parks, although I understand that large gatherings might be a ways away. The uncertainty is difficult, but I am learning about how to trust in the Lord more during my personal study, and I hope that I can be stronger after this experience, even when I feel like I'm slogging through most of the time. I guess that is what faith is, duh, to continue despite uncertainty and difficulty. Onward, then!
Henry's chart was for doing his morning routine all by himself, plus earning a little bit of the money.
Robbie's was for reading 10 verses in the Book of Mormon per day and earning some of the money.
We got a bike seat for Benjy, too, and he really enjoys it. We also purchased a bike for Clara, and she has learned to balance and pedal her bike! She still is really scared of it but is determined and continues to work at it, which is inspiring.
At the invitation of a friend, we made a sign for the hospital healthcare workers and put it up in one of the employee parking lots.
Homemade doughnuts made from molds that Nana sent us. The doughnut recipe I used (not from my mom) was pretty tasteless, but the kids thought they were awesome.
Here the boys are playing "spies," apparently.
We made "rain" with shaving cream and colored water, learning about how clouds fill up and empty.
Henry can be very sweet with Benjy sometimes. He also can be pretty rough with him, which is challenging, but the hugs shared between them are precious. Henry loves reading and swinging and climbing and playing games. We enjoy Don't Break the Ice, Race to the Treasure, Memory, Guess Who, Uno, Slamwich, and more.
Benjy is very very busy. Very. Good thing he is so stinking cute.
We took pictures of headstones at a local cemetery one Sunday for the Billion Graves app.
Working on another sign for a family in the ward.
Dinosaur themed preschool was not as cool as I was hoping, but that's okay. I am pretty sure teaching other kids is easier than your own, but then there have also been some gratifying teaching moments, like when Henry and I learned about the different words you could make from the word "planets" during our space themed week. Robbie typically does some of the activities with me and Henry (after we do our poem, etc. as I mentioned in a previous post) and then does his work from school on the tablet or on paper. I love how he is also interested in his own topics, like sharks--he has made a long list of at least one hundred shark species, which he has written in teeny handwriting. Lots of cool Lego creations these days from Robbie as well.
To make things feel more normal and to get out of the house, one Saturday we visited the enormously overpriced Virginia Safari Park to feed animals from our car.
I think Benjy's favorite part was being able to sit in front and roam around the car.
Lots of llamas.
Yum!
Space week went better--we watched a fascinating tour of the inside of the ISS and learned a lot of things about the planets and the moon. I love learning. I am especially appreciative of the people whose brains work differently than mine and can fathom things like space and time more easily than I can.
Speaking of the moon, here are its phases, Oreo-style.
This moon dough was a lot of fun. Very messy, but fun. Clara generally does her schoolwork in the study on her Chromebook, but on this occasion she wanted to join in on the fun.
Lots of book reading happening (Robbie is so cute when he reads to Benjy)--I have purchased some books, and my neighbors, Kate and Grace and I are doing a little book swap each week, which has really helped. I don't like reading books on a device, but we have done some of that, too.
Michael has been doing various house projects, like building these planter boxes. He has still been going in 9 to 4 to complete a lot of backlogged work and projects, but the extra time on each end has been helpful to me. Too bad it ends tomorrow when he goes back to seeing patients. Still, though, we certainly have enjoyed having him around more, and the kids are always bummed when Daddy has to go to work.
This Russian ring stacker from my parents is still going strong. I love Benjy's focus when he does things like this.
It is sweet to look back and see how we can find joy in little things despite the uncertainty and stress swirling around us. I have felt some feelings of anxiety and stress, worrying when enough is enough when it comes to educating my kids or making sure they're contributing around the house enough, etc. I also struggle when I am too focused on myself, and serving others is a little trickier now. Still, when I reach outside of myself I always feel better. Michael helped me realize I needed to make a plan for when I am focused on the kids' needs for school (9 to 12am) and when it's fine for things to be unstructured and for me not to feel guilty if I can't play with them all the time (in the afternoon). I made a list of daily priorities for myself as well, which has helped.
I was not looking forward to having home church each week, but I've been amazed that I can still feel the Spirit even when the kids are misbehaving (as long as I haven't lost the Spirit because I'm too upset at them). That is a great blessing.
So, we continue on, not knowing whether things in the summer will be cancelled or continued, basically taking each week at a time. I am ready to have "permission" to have playdates and go to parks, although I understand that large gatherings might be a ways away. The uncertainty is difficult, but I am learning about how to trust in the Lord more during my personal study, and I hope that I can be stronger after this experience, even when I feel like I'm slogging through most of the time. I guess that is what faith is, duh, to continue despite uncertainty and difficulty. Onward, then!
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